Part XXXV

[thunderedge]

Leon: ....
Cloud: What you're really saying is you can't trust the rest of us to watch your back.
Cloud: At least, that's what it sounds like to me.
Cloud: So you'll do something stupid. So what? We're here to stop you, aren't we?
Leon: ...I guess.
Cloud: ...or maybe this is just none of my business, after all.
Shiva: ....Hey Squall-honey, gonna leave for a bit, to see how this all goes, okay? Even I know I shouldn't be doing this, but I keep doing it until you're just ready to let go.
Leon: ...So, you're going to leave like all the others?
Shiva: I'm not leaving you, I'm just giving you a chance to see that you're better off this way. *shrugs*
Leon: .....whatever.
Izzy: (Can't she still like, hang around but not in his head?)
Shiva: *goes off to join the other four GFs*
Aki: (not really. She'll either have to go back to her place where she came from or stay in Leon's head XD)
Izzy: (I mean, does she absolutely need his memories to sustain herself? Will she disappear otherwise?)
Aki: (She'd die, yeah.)
Leon: ..........
Leon: Okay, I'm going to bed.
Leon: See you later, Cloud.
Izzy: (That kinda...sucks.)
Aki: (yeah)
Cloud: .......
Leon: *walks off*
Cloud: ...*looks down at the lump of Fenrir under his pant leg*
Cloud: ...night....
Fenrir: *snuggles against his leg* wark..?
Cloud: I hope I didn't just make another mistake.
Aerith: ...*frowns*
Fenrir: wark.. *shakes head*
Fenrir: *pokes out from under his pant leg* waark wark.
Aki: (she's saying 'Leon's sad')
Aerith: Sit, Cloud, I'll make you hot chocolate..
Aerith: *gets a chair, and stands on it to reach the cabinet with the chocolate powder*
Cloud: *shifts carefully onto another chair*
Aerith: *hops down from the chair and makes the hot chocolate*
Aerith: Whipped cream, or plain?
Cloud: Huh? Oh...Plain's fine
Cloud: ....thanks
Aerith: *smiles*
Aerith: *brings the hot chocolate over and gives it to Cloud* careful not to burn yourself.
Aerith: Why the long face?
Cloud: I think...I might have made another mistake.
Cloud: And I don't want to lose anyone this time.
Aerith: You won’t. Whoever you maybe referring to...nothing will happen to them. Besides, mistakes are there to be learned from. You've certainly learned from them. Look at all the people you have around, we're all here for you.
Cloud: I know that....now more than ever, but...
Aerith: And you're here for us, right?
Cloud: I guess...I'm learning.
Cloud: that I can't make choices for everyone else.
Cloud: But it's so damn hard to sit by and just watch.
Cloud: Being here...that being all I can do...it's....frustrating.
Aerith: *nods* I know.
Aerith: But that's the best you can do. The best you can do, is be there for people, no matter what happens, and they'd do the same for you.
Cloud: But what if it's not enough?
Aerith: It is enough.
Cloud: ......*looks down*
Aerith: Whatever happens, happens...your efforts are an amazing thing in themselves. Leon doesn't hold you accountable for anything. He just needs to sort himself out. Maybe you could help.
Cloud: ....I wonder if he'll let me.
Aerith: I think he will.
Cloud: Just now, I......
Cloud: ...nevermind.
Aerith: You can say. I won’t force you to, but I'm all ears when you want me to be.
Cloud: I...I know that.
Cloud: Dammit.
Cloud: you'd...probably understand. More than anyone.
Cloud: But I...*grips hot chocolate mug tighter*
Cloud: Dammit! I'm scared!
Cloud: Everything's always turned out all right in the end...
Cloud: Before, but...
Cloud: I just don't...know.
Cloud: I don't want him to make a stupid choice, but I don't want him to forget everything, either--!
Cloud: I keep...expecting him to look at me and not remember my name anymore.
Cloud: And after all we've all been through, that's...too much.
Aerith: Of all people, I think you'd be the one he'd fight most to remember, as cliché as that may seem.
Cloud: You don't have to---......thanks.
Aerith: *smiles a bit*
Aerith: You're welcome.
Izzy: (he was gonna be typical Cloud and say "You don't have to flatter me", but he's learning. XD)
Aki: (XDD)
Aki: (As cliché as it seemed, it's probably true, anyway XDD)
Aki: (Aerith kinda wants to get rid of the tension, though XDD)
Izzy: (yeah. But Cloud needed to stop being so...I dunno, literal.)
Izzy: (and accept that sometimes you need to play along. XD)
Aki: (Yeah, i know. XD She was thinking about making "go save the day with your amazing chocobo skills" joke, but... XD)
Izzy: (It's like saying "Thanks for trying to cheer me up" instead of "that's dumb and wouldn't work" XD)
Aki: (yeah XD)
Sora: ....Aerith. Leon's...being...err…
Aerith: ...Don't make the situation seem worse, please, Sora…
Cloud: *looks up quickly*
Sora: He just seems...I dunno. Depressive?
Aerith: You should know he's like that, Sora.
Cloud: No, it's because I pushed him...
Sora: *blinks*
Aerith: That couldn't have been it, Cloud.
Sora: ...I'll go shopping for our groceries now…*leaves*
Cloud: ....not literally....
Aerith: I know…
Aerith: Why don't you go speak with him?
Cloud: I did. Well...
Cloud: I'm not sure I know what to say anymore.
Aerith: Silence can be golden...
Cloud: ..........
Izzy: (ahahaha)
Aerith: good, now go share that talent with Leon.
Aerith: Off you go. *makes shooing motions with her hands*
Cloud: ..I would, but...*looks down at Fenrir sleeping on his leg*
Aerith: I'll watch her for a bit.
Aerith: ...Or you could follow the notion that animals can also be therapeutic…
Aerith: either one.
Cloud: I'm not sure Squall wants to see her right now.
Cloud: Considering what she did to his jacket...
Aerith: *nods*
Aerith: Fenrir...come on, I'll give you some warm treats to eat~
Fenrir: *blinks and falls out from his pantleg*
Fenrir: *wiggles and stands up before following after Aerith*
Cloud: *stands up and finishes hot chocolate*
Yuffie: Squall, open the door, stop breaking things..!
Yuffie: ...How are you not breaking things?!
Cloud: ....Yuffie. What's going on?
Yuffie: ugh.
Yuffie: He's being Leon.
Yuffie: Taking his anger out on a wall and quite possibly his night stand. It IS his house, he should be allowed to, I'm just worried is all.
Yuffie: Actually, he doesn't seem all that mad.
Cloud: .....
Yuffie: Go knock him out or something, Cloud. *walks by to get a glass of OJ*
Cloud: Uh....
Cloud: *hesitates, then knocks on the door instead*
Leon: ...Go away Yuffie.
Cloud: Last time I checked, I wasn't a short annoying ninja girl, but you never know.
Leon: ...
Izzy: (ooh, now he has a sense of humor. >.>)
Cloud: Look.......
Yuffie: *rolls her eyes*
Cloud: I know I'm bad at....talking about things.
Cloud: What I said earlier....
Cloud: Dammit! *hits the wall with a fist* I'm doing it again!
Cloud: *mutters to himself* say it straight out for once!
Cloud: I'm worried, all right? We all are!
Cloud: That's...it.
Leon: *opens the door* ...Well, you're being honest…
Leon: I might as well be…
Leon: And I'm pretty scared. I'm not sure what of, but I am.
Izzy: (I was very tempted to have Cloud standing close to the door so it would hit him in the face. XD)
Aki: (haha, and Leon would freak out and be like "OOPS D: " )
Izzy: (XDD)
Cloud: *holding his right hand with his left because it's still smarting a bit* It's fine.
Cloud: I'm pretty damn scared myself.
Izzy: (wtf)
Izzy: (I'm dying here XD)
Izzy: (because it's just too funny)
Aki: (it IS XD)
Izzy: (no, I mean)
Aki: (no, Cloud has a pretty awesome expression is what I mean)
Izzy: (That if we were serious LeonCloud fans, this would be getting so bad...XD)
Aki: (i know XDDD)
Izzy: (but he does have a pretty great expression XD)
Aki: (XDD)
Izzy: (like, "Fuck, my hand hurts.")
Izzy: ("Squall, what the hell are your walls made of!?")
Izzy: ("And why am I talking like Cid, goddammit!?")
Izzy: (XD)
Aki: (Leon: ...concrete and iron..)
Izzy: (I just noticed that Cloud started swearing a lot XD)
Aki: (he's aggravated, he should be swearing XD)
Izzy: (haha)
Leon: ...why.
Cloud: Making mistakes, being a burden, losing someone...
Cloud: I've done all that.
Cloud: But it doesn't change anything. It doesn't mean it can't happen again.
Leon: Mistakes make you human, you're not a burden, you're not losing anyone.
Cloud: What I mean is, now...
Cloud: I'm still scared of that, but it's easier.
Cloud: Because every time I was ready to give up, there was always someone to stop me.
Cloud: ....any of us would gladly be that person for you, you know.
Leon: ....Thanks. :]
Leon: ....Cloud, Tifa, Aerith, S-so...who..
Cloud: ....what?
: Leon: saying names..
Cloud: ......Yuffie?
Izzy: (Cloud, you're dense. )
Leon: I couldn't forget her even if I wanted to.
Leon: constantly screaming and running around, yelling her own name across town for all to hear...no one could forget.
Leon: Spiky, brown hair. Keyblade.
Cloud: ........
Cloud: You didn't.
Leon: ...
Leon: ...Begins with S, that I know.
Cloud: It's still there. It has to be.
Leon: ...Jeez, I didn't forget.
Leon: Sora'd kill me if I forgot him again.
Leon: that one time 5 years ago was enough
Cloud: ........
Cloud: You....
Cloud: *stares at him, a bit horrified*
Izzy: (Leon, you're so mean. XD)
Aki: (XD)
Izzy: (he seriously scared Cloud there XD)
Aki: (Yeah, the worried tone was what he wanted to hear XDD)
Cloud: *can't really say anything because of shock*